So today I was meeting with a few other students to talk about school stuff (in case you didn't know, I'm on student council) and I didn't eat anything for lunch. Can I just say, that is the second day I've done that so far, and I still feel great and rarely feel hungry! I just told people I ate already or would eat later. My best friend, let's call her...Jamie, asked if I ate lunch (very skeptically, I might add) because she never saw me get food at the cafeteria. I just lied and said I ate some food I brought from home... *sigh* I don't really like lying, and I'm not particularly good at it (I always start smiling), but for this, it's worth it.
Right now, it's almost 6:30 and my parents are eating dinner. I think they forgot about me being home, because I'm in my room, silently writing this, so let's just hope they think I ate something for dinner. I kind of like this eat-breakfast-but-fast-for-the-rest-of-the-day diet. I might keep it up for longer... In case you don't know why it's super important to eat breakfast, it's because if you don't the body thinks you're starving (which you are, just purposefully) so the next time you eat something, it stores every calorie and every bit of fat, just in case you can't eat sooner. So to avoid that, just take a few bites of protein filled food.
So I was at a school basket ball game, and a mom of one of the other girls came up to me and basically complemented me on how skinny I had gotten. In all fairness, it has been a while since she saw me, but she's not the first mom to have said this in the past month or so. It's gotten me thinking; was I fatter than I thought I was before??? Has there been such a drastic change in my body since the dieting has started? When I look in the mirror, I only see more fat that could be taken off. I see a fat girl who needs that gap between her legs. I know I need to keep my stomach flat and my arms skinny if I ever want to be considered pretty.
I know what I have to do, because Ana told me to do it.
